I’m well loved.

Like to the point that my girlfriend will send out my birthday gifts a friggin’ week early. [I turn 26 on this coming Saturday, and I got the box this past Saturday.]

HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF ARACHNOPHOBIA, USPS? I know they’re trying to promote Spider-Man 2, but this is just ridiculous. In the box she tossed in Hello Kitty fruit snacks [nom!] How did she know I was out? 0_____0 a couple body sprays that smell AWESOME [and actually were supposed to be in my Christmas box, but they mysteriously grew legs and disappeared on her.] and a smaller Hello Kitty bag [because the one I have is seriously massive and I’m not taking that thing to cons….HOW DOES SHE KNOW?!?] Seriously, she must read my goddamn mind from all the way up there…


When I got evacuated from my house because of the brush fire, the tee shirt she ordered me had turned up. It was taking ninety years to ship and she was hecka worried it wasn’t going to arrive in time for my birthday.

I wanna live in that shirt. I’m not kidding. I’ve washed it already, and I’m tempted to wear it to my GA interview but…nah. I’ll have to look somewhat put together and not a huge nerd.



So on Thursday afternoon, there was a major brush fire in my town. We didn’t think anything of it at first because we heard no sirens or anything then we happened to be looking out the window and there was this GIANT plume of black smoke, flames and ash. We thought it was as close as my neighbor’s house, that’s how clear everything was.

A little while later, our street and the in-between ended up being evacuated. We loaded up the dog, hitched up the RV [for the sake of if my house ended up being burnt down, we had a place to go.] and went over to a co-worker of my Mom’s house who was on the other direction of the fire. We hung out there for a while, and at about 6pm we were deemed safe enough to go back home.

No homes were completely burned, but there was some minor damage to a roof, some melted siding and a shed burned down. There was also no reports of any injuries. [Yay.]

It was -incredibly- scary and a damn near repeat of a major brushfire we had back in 2002 that evacuated us as well. I wanna thank ALL the responders who came out to deal with this and keep us safe.

You look like an ass, Don’t do that.

Recently it came to  my attention that I was supposedly full of hate for someone. Sure, this person had done a lot of shitty stuff in the past, but the stuff has quite literally occurred YEARS ago. I do not hold grudges for long, and if I do [which I have literally….two.] they are well deserved.

This person came to me the day before yesterday hoping to clear the air, and I was quite literally, “The air had been cleared. I do not have time to dwell on HS BS drama llamas.” Unfortunately for them, they were going by things said by another party and not coming to the source to figure things out. This particular issue also included G, but G also had no qualms with this person.

We [G and I.] did not leave Furcadia [a MMO that G, Kit and I along with some other friends used to play years ago. Some of our friends still play to this day.] over this particular person, and the person assumed we did over information that was given out by the other party and the info was supposedly in writing but no-one could come up with this info to prove. We left because I got bored and had no real reason to be on anymore because of my falling out with my previous partner. We [my previous partner and I.] also moved on to other forms of communication and really did not need to be on Furcadia to chat anymore when we were still together. G was famous for leaving at months at a time because life got busy. We all do.

It was just really frustrating to know that B had held on to thinking that I hated them still when I really did not. I’m not sure why they did not come to me sooner, but I am almost always around to chat and if I’m not, your message or email will be there when I’m able to get to it.

So the moral of this story is simple kids, if you feel like I may have an issue with you, please ask me. Do not go by shit spewed by another party because it might not be the most accurate information.


Shit hits the fan…

If you’re new here, check out the SSDI Application Adventures tag, as it’s an update to the saga.

When we last left off in May of last year, I had gotten a letter that my hearing request was submitted and it would be 8-10 months before I got a hearing date.

Well, since then we’d passed the two-year mark since I started this whole journey with the government. Yesterday I had gotten a call from my lawyer and he stated that my hearing was set for August. He then went on to say that I am not physically disabled enough in the eyes of the law, but my mental disabilities may just be “good enough” to pass me. However, the report that the psychologist I saw in February of last year wasn’t good enough and my lawyer is advising me to see another psychologist for a more thorough workup. Thing is, my insurance is ending in a week, as I turn 26 on the 3rd and as such, my medical gets booted. So, it’s going to cost me anywhere from $500 to $700 just to have my brain picked….again. As if the first time wasn’t stressful enough!

So I ended up applying for general assistance that will [hopefully.] give me Medicaid, food stamps and a bit of cash. I got a call from that office yesterday saying that they received my application and would be setting up an appointment to finish the rest of it. If I happen to get the GA, I may just forget pursuing the disability case because apparently no matter how disabled I may be, I’m not disabled enough in the eyes of the law.

I highly enjoy having conditions I certainly did not ask for. IT’S FUCKING PEACHY.

I would probably still be at my job now if I could do it, but I cannot.

Present me with work that doesn’t aggravate ANY of my conditions. Prove me wrong.

I highly doubt a job will let me lie down for a few hours on paid time because my “spoons” have been depleted.

Find me a job that lets me do that, and you might just have a deal.

For now, this entire thing is fucking bullshit and I’ve had it up to here.