Post Hearing

**If you’re new here, I urge you to go through the tag SSDI Application Adventures so you know what the diddly heck I’m trying to form words on your screen for. I hope this will be all over one day so I can do a masterpost…**

I also want to preface this that I am posting from my Kindle Fire as opposed to my PC because I am wiped out of spoons and yesterday [August 11th.] my remaining working laptop had finally given up. I should be back to posting regularly from my desktop later in the week so if you see any weird words or spelling mistakes that’s cos I’m going by a touch screen and not a physical keyboard.

It proved difficult to post from my Kindle Fire, the UI wasn’t loading properly. :/

Anyway…

I’ve finally had my hearing and I can’t tell you yet if I’m in the clear or I have to continue beating up SSA cos I got one of the judges that doesn’t tell you right then if you are approved or not. What I can say though is his approve rate is higher than his deny. Considering how I’ve got treated thus far I’m just going to go with the fact that I am denied a third time unless proven otherwise. Sure, that sounds pretty pessimistic but you begin to feel like it’s not even worth it but then there’s the other half of you kicking you in the ass to not give up because that’s ultimately what SSA wants you to do so they don’t have to pay out.

The report from the doctor I saw last week obviously wasn’t ready for my file so my file is being held open for the next 30 days meaning even more waiting (some people say up to another three months.) for the judge’s decision.

Not only that, I literally fucked up on a question and my lawyer pretty much verbally slapped me across the face for it. Needless to say, it’s a fuck up that could land me in the slammer, so if you don’t hear from me for five years… That’s why. I don’t run well under pressure, and not only that, a person is expecting me to keep so much information in a span of 10-15 minutes. But, hopefully I got my fuck up reversed when my lawyer posed the question I fucked up on again towards the end of the hearing…

I have been pretty much beating myself up over it.

But yeah, as always, will continue to update you on this hectic journey if I don’t end up in jail first. :/