i’m famous for breaking the sharing rule, so i’ll move on to my blog history.
i started blogging in September 2003 on LiveJournal, after an epiphany hit me that i wasn’t ready to die yet. i was struggling with self-harm and an eating disorder.
But Kitty, why didn’t you just tell someone?
good question! it was because i was afraid. i was afraid to ask for help. my mother [at the time] did not believe in mental illness and was always high anyway. so the person i was supposed to trust with this stuff wasn’t a good resource, so i turned to writing. i felt that if the words were out somewhere, they were no longer screaming inside of my head.
How about a PAPER JOURNAL? Why put it on the INTERNET?
again, because my mother was nosy and i did not have access to disposal like i do now [a lighter.] fourteen year old me also didn’t have access to any kind of privacy like twenty-seven year old me does now. fourteen-year-old me was subjected to regular room checks, everything was turned upside down and if any contraband was found [like a paper journal.] it was then lead to interrogation.
i never blogged at home though, not until i was eighteen and had my own computer in my closet. i always blogged when i was in the library in school. [i knew the ways around the blocks. :P]
my blog went through several name changes and locations [Wordpress, Livejournal, Blogger and even Twitter for a couple months when i was completely just…DONE with the blogging community.] over the past 10+ years, but i never completely stopped it.
it’s taken a while, but i’m finally satisfied with where my blog is at right now.
ADVICE-Y TYPE THINGS!
o1. above all, be yourself. it makes you more relatable.
o2. blog what you want, when you want.
i hate to be frank, but with how much the blogosphere moves, it’s unlikely it’s going to be noticed that you haven’t blogged in a month. that’s okay though, because this is YOUR space. you do what you want with it.
o3. it’s going to be quiet for a while, unless you do the grunt-work to put your blog out there. [i’m way too fucking lazy, i admit.] i actually don’t mind screaming into the void with noone to listen because that’s how i started. if someone should come along to let me know they’re listening, that’s cool too though.
o4. don’t be afraid to speak what’s on your mind. someone’s going to find something to hate you about it regardless.
don’t give shitty people like that the time of day, they just think they’re hot shit because they can say this shit “anonymously” via a keyboard. 99.9% of the time i highly doubt they’ll have the balls to say it to your face. delete and move on. do not engage ’em.
past me used to engage the hate, and let me tell you, it is not worth it.
o5. read Get Off My Internets. do NOT be like that. [as in some of the stories they post are so cringe-worthy.]
that’s all i can think of off the top of my head while i’m not breakfasted or caffeinated so that’s pretty good actually. @__@